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Breathe deep as I am afraid, the love
Burns, aches, I reach out to you
There is nothing there, only dust
And dry bones singing in the wind.
One last time I reach out hoping
Soft skin can hold me, smile wide
As the wound in my heart, and
Every dream dies in your eyes.
Veins wake, I reach out for
A life that never was, I desire
To call you, summon you, to
Open my wrist, to feed you.
One more time I call you and
Nothing makes sense, it never will
I will not let you go even as
You will not let me live.
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I dream in darkness, I feel your soul
So close, so far, so lost, I cry
Seeing your emerald eyes again
I open the vein, but this death
Doesn't break the binding
Even in the silence I hear you
Come to me, be with me, and
Love me. Unto death, love me.
I give myself away, dreaming
the dark fears me, the light dims
And we are one, again.
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Bird in Flight by TheSerpentsFeather Bird in Flight :icontheserpentsfeather:TheSerpentsFeather 1 0 Iris 001 by TheSerpentsFeather Iris 001 :icontheserpentsfeather:TheSerpentsFeather 0 0
Cycling, it turns down, this darkness
I can't resist, trying to turn away
There is no alternative, to live
A life I never asked for, never wanted
Anything, but to be happy, is that too
Much, far too much to ask, some empty
Desire to be alone now, everything lost
And consumed, and I am nothing now.
Cycling, it turns up, this lightness
I can resist, calling to me she
Comes, in warm caresses, love flows
To a life I always longed for, always wanted
Everything, but to avoid sadness, it's too
Much, far too much to fear, some completion
Of fire, to be with you now, everything won
And consumed, and I am everything now.
Cycling, the balance turns, there is no
Silent place, always the reflections speak
Coming in velvet darkness, contradictions
Tear me like tiger claws, never wanted
All of this, brought home to me now that
You have died, leaving me here to live
A half life, never to have that peace I
Knew in your arms, and in your love.
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I see you, red hair, green eyes cry
Why me? The burning goes on forever
No relief, but then, none is asked
And maybe none is wanted.
There is a connection, far away, we
Touch in unexpected places. There is
Delight, and sorrow. Alas, we both
Know the pain that this life brings.
The tears burn traces, taste of bitter
Experience, salt in our wounds, we
Can't find each other, the darkness
Too deep, too long, too apart.
The distance like longing consumes me
Better we never meet, than the chance
Of disappointment, of the fear that
I might love someone again.
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The touch, silken, razor sharp, I bleed
Amber tears, trapping this pain in time
Your eyes like suns, lighting me, guiding
Me ahead, into your arms, into your peace.
The emptiness, you are not near me, now
I sit alone, weeping like a candle, the
Waxen tears flow down my cheeks, and
My dreams drive me mad, drive me back.
The loss, you will never fill my heart
Again I am left apart from this, the
Place you were, torn apart, torn away
Nothing can heal this wound, of you.
The end, that never comes, time passes
I remain, the aching void unfilled by
Your arms, your breath, your presence
Lost to me, a part of me dies with you.
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You want me to be what you are
Love is lost, you are the queen
Desire burns, you suck me down
There is nothing left, and all is seen.
You drive me from your home, I feel your hate
So what am I? I know I came too late
The darkness in your eyes will make me feel
Something inside your heart, and so I deal
The cards turn up, an ace, a king, and so I feel
That nothing I have lived with you, is real
You want me to die? I want to die, this time
consume my heart, you bitch, inside my rhyme.
I thought you were my love, and so I see
There is no-one here inside, that isn't me
You are nothing to me, lover mine
A dark oblivion, my dear, is my design.
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Memories like demons possess that
Little attention I have, blood the
Price I pay for my experience, and
Darkness my reward, my only reward.
Here in the silence of my frozen soul
I think of you, my love, and I am
Afraid. I am not so brave as you.
I fight back my tears, losing the war.
Like a mirror broken, the thousand reflections
Distract, deflect, the pain I feel, I
Hide inside the silver, shimmering
Every splinter is you. Every one is you.
Turning away, I dream myself into something
Other than the broken wreck I am, hopeful
That if I lie to myself long enough
I will believe it.
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Slowly but Surely

Journal Entry: Sat Jul 28, 2012, 10:10 AM

Well, accomplishing things while you're recovering frm a hospital stay is problematic, to say the least!

I have all the parts for my new 3D production machine, but because of the antifungal I'm continually tired and a touch fuzzy of brain - not a state to be in if you're assembling a computer!  So, that's going to have to wait (sigh) until I'm off the antifungal in 10 days.

In the meantime, I'm reorganizing all my 2D and 3D art assets to make it easier to run a production pipeline.  This arrangement will eventually migrate wholesale to the new machine, but it's going to be a while.. at least I can do it while I'm not 100% so that SOMETHING is getting accomplished!

I'm also running tests on the various software packages I have, to determine optimal flow.. I'm pretty happy with everything at this stage and am just creating small scenes and studies to better learn the strengths and weaknesses of each tool.  At this point I'm 100% convinced I don't need more software, I just need to learn what I have and fill in the missing bits of 3D art assets that I somehow managed to forget to buy.

I already have a Scrivener project for TVC, so I'm good to go there.  The original Vicky Diaries is part of the project archive, and all my old notes, so nothing That Has Passed(tm) is lost.

Hopefully this weekend I can get a character study for Decay  (one of the Lords of Karma) done and up here.  I have all the art assets, I just need to Sit Down And Do It(tm).

This weekend is complicated by my need to go buy more meds, get a cane to replace my crutch, and do a LOT of annoying laundry!  What a bother!  But little by little I'm clearing the deck to focus on TVC.

Oh, and horror of horrors, I've re-discovered INTERACIVE FICTION, so you might se the random text adventure turn up here - free to download and play!  It ties in with my writing and 3D art nicely, I think, and it's about the last place that a solo writer can create a game without a $10M budget and a team of dozens.

  • Listening to: Tribal FM
  • Reading: Inform7 how-tos
  • Eating: Jimmy Dean hot sausage
  • Drinking: Unsweet ice tea


Edward Averill
United States
Software engineer to pay the bills, composer/producer of music, and writer. Working on the Next Great Erotic Romance Novel. Living in lovely Austin, Texas, enjoying Texas beers - and HOOK 'EM HORNS!

Current Residence: Tulsa, OK
deviantWEAR sizing preference: XL
Favourite genre of music: Ambient
Favourite style of art: 3D computer art
Operating System: Windows 7
MP3 player of choice: Windows Media Player
Favourite cartoon character: Tasmainian Devil
Personal Quote: Anything worth doing, is worth overdoing!


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texasbiscutoflove Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2010
i left a comment on your latest blog. no idea what im doing but i dont know your email address. I hope im not a chatter ..but a freind ... note the nicname ... email me ok
SewLolita Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2010   General Artist
Heya, Wooly :D
TheSerpentsFeather Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2010
Hiiiii! What's up?

Nice doll on your site.. added to faves!
SewLolita Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2010   General Artist
*grins* very little 's up :P thanks for the +fav :D
a-raindrop Featured By Owner Apr 5, 2010
thank you for the fave! :) I like your poetry! mind if I add you? :)
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